"Belli bir yasi gecince yasam dedigin, sahip oldugun seyleri surekli olarak kaybettigin bir surecten oteye gecmez. Yasamin icin onemli olan seyler, birer birer taragin dislerinin kirilip gitmesi gibi insanin elinden kayip dusuverir. Bunlarin yerine eline gecense, degersiz, tuhaf seyler olur. Vucudun yetenekleri, arzular, hayaller, idealler, kendine guven, anlam, hatta asik oldugun insanlar, pes pese, once biri sonra diger seklinde yok olup gider. Veda ederek ayrilanlar, hatta bir gun hicbir sey soylemeden ortadan yok olanlar olur ve bir kez yitirince bunlari bir daha asla tekrar elde edemezsin. Yerine koyacak bir seyler de bulamazsin. Bu, cok aci veren bir seydir. Bazen vucudun lime lime dograniyormus gibi hissedersin. Kavana Bey, otuz yasina girmek uzeresiniz. Bundan sonra yasaminizin alacakaranlik bir cagina adim atmak uzeresiniz. Bu, evet yaslandiginiz anlamina geliyor. Bir seyleri yitirmeye dair o duyguyu siz de yavas yavas kavramaya baslamissinizdir. Oyle degil mi?"
"Once you pass a certain age, life becomes noting more than a process of continual loss. Things that are important to your life begin to slip out of your grasp, one after another, like a comb losing teeth. And the only things that come to take their place are worthless imitations. Your physical strength, your hopes, your dreams, your ideals, your convictions, all meaning, or, then again, the people you love: one by one, they fade away. Some announce their departure before they leave, while others just disappear all of a sudden without warning one day. And once you lose them you can never get them back. Your search for replacement never goes well. It's all very painful- as painful as actually being cut with a knife. You will be turning thirty soon, Mr. Kawana, which means that, from now on, you will gradually enter that twilight portion of life - you will be getting older. ou are probably beginning to grasp that painful sense that you are losing, are you not?"


Alıntı yaparak yanıtla






Yer İmleri