"Yakinlarda bir hanim arkadasimdan ayrildim, o kadar garip oldu ki size anlatmak isterim. Geceleyin taksiyle gidiyorduk. Kolumu omzuna dolamistim, ikimizde ayni taraftan disari bakiyorduk. Keyfimiz yerindeydi. Soylemeyi unuttum, soz konusu olan genc bir kiz, yirmisinde bile degil, ben de çok baglanmistim. O sirada kaldirimda yuruyen bir adam gordum, kisacik bir andi, gecip gittik. Hicbir ayrintısini da algilayamadim, karanlikti cadde: Tek gorebildigim adamin gencten biri olduguydu. Birdenbire, yanimdaki kizin bu disardaki adam goruntusunu secer secmez orada, takside, ne kadar yasli bir adamla sarmas dolas oturdugunun bilincine varmis olacagini, hem de o an benden igrenmeden edemeyecegini dusundum. Bu oyle bir sok oldu ki benim icin, hemen kolumu omzundan cektim. Gerci onunla yola devam ettim, evinin kapisina kadar da gittim, ama orda onu bir daha gormek istemedigimi soyledim. Kabaca bagirdim, gozume gozukmemesini, ona doydugumu soyledim, bitti dedim, hemen kosarak uzaklastim oradan. Eminim, bugune kadar bilmiyordur kendisini nicin terkettigimi. Herhalde kaldirimdaki genc adami gordugunde de hicbir sey dusunmemisti. Belki farkina bile varmamisti..." Peter Handke, Solak Kadin
"Not long ago I broke with a girl I loved. The way it happened was so strange that I'd like to tell you about it. We were riding in a taxi at night. I had my arm around her, and we were both looking out the same side. Everything was fine. Oh yes, you have to know that she was very young -- no more than twenty -- and I was very fond of her. For the barest moment, just in passing, I saw a man on the sidewalk. I couldn't make out his features, the street was too dark. I only saw that he was rather young. And suddenly it flashed through my mind that the sight of that man outside would force the girl beside me to realize what an old wreck was holding her close, and that she must be filled with revulsion. The thought came as such a shock that I took my arm away. I saw her home, but at the door of her house I told her I never wanted to see her again. I bellowed at her. I said I was sick of her, it was all over between us, she should get out of my sight. And I walked off. I'm certain she still doesn't know why I left her. That young man on the sidewalk probably didn't mean a thing to her. I doubt if she even noticed him..."
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